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TODAY I LOVE THE PLAIN WHITE T'S

There's only
one thing
to do
three words
for you
I despise you

There's only
one way
to pay
me three things
because for you I was a toy.
I despise you.

Relapse

Today, I am still thinking I hate you.

But I'm kinda over it. And I don't know why I keep saying that. I kinda just wish you would actually just move away so I don't have to see your face again.

Not because I REALLY hate you, because I really don't like myself. You're like a drug, and I keep relapsing.

TODAY, I AM THINKING ABOUT THE NEW.

Maybe this will be a good beginning. I'm really excited.

Revolve

Today, I think my blog kinda revolves around you.

Let's be honest here, pretty much every single blog post I have had has been about you. And today its about you again!

You texted me, after 4 weeks of not talking to me, asking if I could hang out. I am SO PROUD of myself for saying no, albeit I was busy. I was about to ditch my sister to go hang out with you.

One thing I have noticed about you, mate, is that when I don't reply right away you get worried. I think its because you are a Gemini. You're so used to be in control in your head that you don't like it when things don't go your way.

Also, just like to quote from an astrological website on Gemini's:

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If Gemini becomes bored within the relationship, he will almost certainly move on, often with no concept of the devastation he is causing
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Ok so I honestly think you just got bored with me.

ALSO, I am a Virgo, and Gemini's and Virgo's are actually really incompatible signs; something I will remember for the future! I find Gemini's really frustrating, Argh!

Especially this one

Save the drama

Today, I am thinking about that one kid.

Yeahhh again. Thanks for texting me and trying to start up some drama. THAT YOU MADE UP. Wow... I had on a grimace? How self-centered can you be?

SO OMG

Today, I am thinking that I have made even more progress!

I'm surprised I just remembered my blog. I mean, hey, one follower, but it was good to write out my feelings. Honestly? I haven't had a lot of feelings lately. I've been pretty liberated. I don't even really have anything to write.

OH. But there's this one kid that I see walking after 6th period when I go to my locker! I feel like we have eye contact but I am too much of a pussy to do anything about it.

OH WELL.

I feel better

Today I am admiring my progress!

I really do think about you less! I don't cry anymore, I don't wish anymore, and I think I really am moving on!

IT'S SO LIBERATING.
I LOVE IT.

Mom I really do love you.

Today, I am thinking about my mom.

I hate that you can't accept me. But I am okay with that. But... if you can't accept it, than ignore it! Why do you keep on bringing it up all the time? Why are you trying to scare me?

If you really hate it that much, than just don't talk about it.

You know that I love you, and I would NEVER do anything to hurt you.

So why do you hurt me?

Today, I am totally not making resolutions!

I am slowly getting over it. I'm laughing geuinely, I feel better about myself.

I am turning back into me!

And its kinda the new year's fault ;).