I did it

Today, I finally got the courage to confront.

Except it was last night but I was so... enveloped last night.

The thing that really sucks is the distance they are trying to fore go but I don't think you they realize that I haven't hung out with you in 3-4 weeks.

It's not like you'll read this anyway, but I really want to be your friend. There is still a lot left that is unsaid.

I never tried to get close to you because you said you still had feelings with that guy. And now, 4 months after, you finally say that you DID have feelings for me, maybe I would have put more effort into trying to get closer with you, but you left me in the dark.

It's all out in the open. You used me, always saying you were "ancy". This time apart is going to rip to me to pieces, but if you think it is necessary then I can deal with it. I just want a friend.

It always sucks being rejected by your first crush.