Pushover

Today, I am thinking about my actions.

I'm not exactly a pushover, but I am a very non-confrontational person. I hate fighting, I think it's ridiculous. Drama is ludicrous. Anything that is childish, naive, immature... doesn't sit well with me.

So, I basically don't mind if people do stuff really annoying. I try to like people for who they are, and if I don't like them, that's that.

But I think it's hindering me. I can't says what needs to be said because I am hindered by my phobia of confrontations. It's not that I don't think that they are necessary, I just want to stay friends. Even though I haven't gotten a text from him in over a week.

I'm too scared to say anything... I'd rather be miserable and talking than happy without being friends.

I need to grow some balls and just do it.

But I just can't.